( How many people know about her hold-beast? Not many. Gwenaëlle, because she’d been there when the rift opened up. Gannicus, because he’d asked.
It both feels absurd to mention this, petty and small compared to Abella’s own problems; but after the other woman opened up about Prehevil and Pocketcat then it would feel even more unfair, not baring a sliver of her own heart this way. )
There’s… I’m sorry, this is gonna sound like fucking nothing. But each Avvar hold has a sacred animal called a hold-beast. They’re the spirit of our community. They represent the health of our entire society.
I followed ours out here. I was trying to find out what was wrong with him, but he— died. I can’t go back until I know more. I don’t really want to see the looks on their faces when they know I let them down. Let him down.
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( How many people know about her hold-beast? Not many. Gwenaëlle, because she’d been there when the rift opened up. Gannicus, because he’d asked.
It both feels absurd to mention this, petty and small compared to Abella’s own problems; but after the other woman opened up about Prehevil and Pocketcat then it would feel even more unfair, not baring a sliver of her own heart this way. )
There’s… I’m sorry, this is gonna sound like fucking nothing. But each Avvar hold has a sacred animal called a hold-beast. They’re the spirit of our community. They represent the health of our entire society.
I followed ours out here. I was trying to find out what was wrong with him, but he— died. I can’t go back until I know more. I don’t really want to see the looks on their faces when they know I let them down. Let him down.